Writing is a very solitary activity. If you write, you know that.
And as I slowly make a shift in my life from a total focus on my fitness business to entering the freelance writing and blogging field, that fact has never been more apparent to me.
Every day, I struggle with feeling just a wee bit alone.
Not a Newbie to Being Independent
Now, mind you, I’ve worked from home in one capacity or another for over 20 years. Ever since my second daughter, who as of this writing will turn 24 in about two months, was born. So working in a solitary environment is nothing new to me. I’m very independent and learned long ago how to be accountable to myself and get things done.
But, it can sometimes be a bit lonely. And lonely is where fear sets up shop.
Fear of Change
Ever noticed that? When are you most likely to worry? In the middle of the night, when the house is quiet. Even if you’re not alone, if you’re the only one awake you sure feel like you are.
And that’s when all those little voices that you’re a bit better at ignoring during the day really step front and center. They practically blow raspberries at you, taunting you with every little seed of doubt, worry, concern and fear that you’re usually able to quell.
Why Am I Writing About Fear Today?
Why am I writing a blog post about this today? Because I know that anything I’m struggling with, you may be as well. And reaching out to you helps me. I admit it. But it might help you too. I can’t be the only one who’s ever felt this way.
As you may know, I currently run a fitness business. That business is still very much alive and well, but the focus on it is shifting. I have finally realized that while I’m still very committed to staying healthy and fit, I’ll never be uber fit. I’ve come to realize that perfection and looking like a runway model are not only unnecessary, but the level of focus it would take for me to get there is just not worth it. I simply do not need to be perfect. I just need to be healthy and fit enough to look and feel good.
And as I realized this, it opened the door for me to finally do something I’ve always wanted to do. The timing is right. Or maybe I’m just ready.
Enter Terri Cruce Writes
I just know I can no longer still that voice and that’s why you’re now reading this post on my new blog site, Terri Cruce Writes.
But along with this shift in focus comes new fears, doubts and worries. And boy oh boy, anyone who knows me well can tell you, worrying is something I’ve developed into an art form.
And it tends to kick in at night or other times when I’m alone, the house is quiet, and there’s no one around with whom to bounce around ideas and thoughts.
Add in that I tend to be a person who doesn’t reach out to people in those situations, for fear of being a pest, and it’s easy to see why so many of my best conversations are held between me and myself. <smile> I really can be my own best counselor.
However, anything that we do as a solo venture, like writing, can have the effect of making you feel cut off from others. Sometimes that feeling is more intense than others. And one of my biggest fears is that some of the friendships I’ve forged in my fitness business will falter because I’m shifting gears. Going rogue. Will my friends understand? Will they think I’m just quitting on something they continue to pursue with the same fervor I once did? Will they whisper about me? “What the heck is up with Terri?”
And how big is my ego, anyway? Geez.
It’s stupid, I know, but that doesn’t keep me from thinking about it.
But you know what? I know I have to do this. And I know that my real friends will remain my friends, no matter what direction I chose to go. Just as I would for them, if the shoe was on the other foot.
What I’ve Learned About Myself Over Time
Here’s what I know about myself, and some of this may be familiar to you as well, if, like me, you’re independent and work well on your own:
- I am dependable and loyal and when I make a commitment, I keep it
- I learned long ago what was necessary to make a self-run business succeed and am no stranger to meeting deadlines, honoring commitments and going the extra mile
- I know how to quiet the voices that can instill fear and worry in my heart and mind
- I know when to say no and when to say yes so I don’t get overburdened, something that can only make you look bad to anyone who hires you or trusts in you
Your Reputation is Your Greatest Asset
Your reputation is your greatest asset and anyone who works for themselves, mostly by themselves, knows that. Blow that and you’re toast.
And that’s as it should be. You earn the trust of others by keeping your word and meeting your commitments.
I also know that those very qualities that I’ve honed for well over 25 years serve me well when I put my mind to something. Like launching a freelance writing business.
How Do You Quell the Voice of Fear?
I’m curious. How do you quell that voice in your head? The one that makes its appearance at the most inopportune times? What strategies have you used to move past your fears, allowing to reach your goals and realize your dreams?
Because I know we can shut that voice up. I know those who care about us won’t stop caring simply because we decide to change direction.
You Find Out Who Your Friends Are
But I also know that if someone disappears, they weren’t really a friend, or the reason they entered my life has served its purpose, and there’s a whole new cast of characters out there, closely aligned with my writing business, who will add new richness and value to my life, right along with my existing friends. We don’t lose anything. We gain so much more.
I am excited to see where this whole writing thing will take me.
Don’t fear making changes in your life, when you know the time is right. Don’t worry about what others will think or say.
Find your passion. Chase it. Focus on it.
Make your life what you’ve always wanted it to be.
What have you been waiting to do? When will you stop waiting to do it?